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led astray

January 2013

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crafting to distraction

I have accomplished a lot the last few days, but mostly craftwise.  I dyed a bunch of fiber for spinning, completed a scarf and most of a hat for my neighbor, and most of the slide presentation for the lace back of Kir's bolero.  I took some pictures, but it's a bit of a pain in the ass to upload them onto/from my machine.

Staying away from facebook for now so I can maintain emotional distance from the break-up.  Job searching is still one of the most depressing things I know.  I've even been turned down for jobs friends have reccommended me for.  It breaks my heart.  I've been binge eating again.  I know that I know better.  It doesn't help fill up the hole.  Nothing does, so I don't know why I keep trying.  I'm trying to take a stand, to better myself.  I've been doing some exercise here and there.  I was trying to eat better, but that continues to be a tremendous obstacle.  I made a list of questions to ask myself when I'm making a decision.  It has worked a couple of times, so I need to find a way to carry it around with me so I remember to use it all the time.  Keeping my chin up is a job all on its own.  I can get better.  I can gain control of my life and make things better.  I have to believe.  I have to hope.  I have to try.  And I have to let go of my Fear Of Everything and stop using it as a shield to protect me from ridicule.