making my way

More vivid mom dreams last night, this time of abandonment and blaming me for things that aren't my fault.  It's another sunshiny, warm, gorgeous day and I woke up depressed.  Fuck.  Today I'm going to make a couple phone calls and see if I can't get this therapy ball rolling.  I also have to yell at Comcast for still not sending a change of responsibility form.

Yesterday I looked at my Mandarin supplies and got overwhelmed.  I feel not smart enough, like it's too late to go back, I have no class to correct me if I'm wrong, and no one to practice with.  I've done it before and really enjoyed it.  I can do it again.  Just have to start from the beginning.  I can find someone to practice with on craigslist.  

Maybe it's a good day for a video game break.  And a walk.