and back down
More vivid mom dreams last night, this time of abandonment and blaming me for things that aren't my fault. It's another sunshiny, warm, gorgeous day and I woke up depressed. Fuck. Today I'm going to make a couple phone calls and see if I can't get this therapy ball rolling. I also have to yell at Comcast for still not sending a change of responsibility form.
Yesterday I looked at my Mandarin supplies and got overwhelmed. I feel not smart enough, like it's too late to go back, I have no class to correct me if I'm wrong, and no one to practice with. I've done it before and really enjoyed it. I can do it again. Just have to start from the beginning. I can find someone to practice with on craigslist.
Maybe it's a good day for a video game break. And a walk.
Yesterday I looked at my Mandarin supplies and got overwhelmed. I feel not smart enough, like it's too late to go back, I have no class to correct me if I'm wrong, and no one to practice with. I've done it before and really enjoyed it. I can do it again. Just have to start from the beginning. I can find someone to practice with on craigslist.
Maybe it's a good day for a video game break. And a walk.
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