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led astray

January 2013

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led astray

oh fuck

There it is, the crippling doubt. I was looking up, but now I see the lava beneath my tightrope and I am fucking scared. Push through it. If there's one thing you know how to do , it's delude your damn self. Well, now's the time to make it work for me. It's not lava, it just really cold water. Falling in will be uncomfortable, but it will not cause a fiery death.

Now to apply the metaphor to reality...push through it.

***later

I felt myself slipping and caught me. Thank you, years of therapy and meds. Good to know some of it stuck. It's a take apart messed up projects day. I totally have the energy and focus for that! And it's like going yarn shopping in my own stash. ;-)

***later still
I guess it's a roller coaster day.

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You can do it!