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January 2013

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led astray

eep!

Haven't had a full blown panic attack in a while.  That was fun.  I remember why I hate the rush hour T.  Fudge-cicles.

Got my paycheck today.  I guess the random fire alarm Friday afternoon knocked things around schedule-wise.  It's less than I had hoped.  Oh well, what can you do?  It probably always will be.  

I made grandma a doily last night.  I'll probably ship it on Saturday along with some other things I've been meaning to get to people.

I don't want to be here.  I'm sure it's the lingering panic.  Nervous and uncomfortable and hyper-sensitive.

Friday I crashed on Puck's futon.  When he got up in the morning to have a cigarette outside, he went to put the blanket on me that I had thrown off during the night.  The blanket brushed my back lightly and I wasn't expecting it.  WHOOO, PTSD reaction!  I flattened myself against the wall and shrieked, startling him.  This was after I tried some self-EMDR while drinking and watching Deadwood, so it's possible I stirred up some gunk from the bottom of the river and I'm still processing it.  FUN!  I'm having a hard time sitting here, staying put.  Breathe.  I am capable. 

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