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January 2013

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withdrawal

Oh, body, I agree.  Life is better when we have weed.  I'm experiencing something like the hormone fluctuation brought on by menses.  The estrogen in our systems balances out the testosterone also present.  When the estrogen levels drop, the testosterone level stays technically the same, but the effective level skyrockets, sending us into classic fits of aggression, anger, and ill temper.  But what has been dropped from my system is not estrogen, but another calming chemical commonly called THC (because I can't spell the full name).  So it isn't so much that my level of anxiety is rising, but that the chemical I use to counter it is gone so I feel it more.  It's the emotional equivalent of dry shaving with an old blade.  I can make it work, but it's less pleasant and easy than usual.  Truth be told, I don't want to quit smoking weed.  I like it.  But A) I'm broke, B) my dude is our of commission for a while, C) my backup dude is on vacation for a while, and D) I can't smoke in China.  So here I sit, uncomfortable and complaining through something that I ardently don't want to do.

In other news, I have a nephew! 

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::big safe hugs:: You can do it!